I've always heard that pregnant women have strange and vivid dreams throughout their pregnancies, but I thought (misguidedly) they were mostly good or at least interesting. Last night I had a nightmare that seemed to last for hours, though I don't think dreams last for more than a minute or so in real time. Here are the basics...
The Setting - A mansion on a huge plot of land with manicured lawn and plenty of large, old trees. The sun is setting, but just in that it's getting darker there are no beautiful sunset colors in the sky. The weather is fine, much like the same time of day in the Berkshires. There's a long path and then a second mansion, smaller than the first, and much older. The windows are dark and it's altogether uninviting.
The Plot - I'm outside looking at the first mansion, when I hear footsteps. These footsteps prompt me to start running down the path towards the second mansion and I burst through the doors. My immediate goal is to find a place to hide. My heart is racing in a calm panic. I run quietly from room to room looking for a hiding place that isn't under a bed or in a closet, I have to be far more clever than that. I get the sense that the one who is after me is a top notch hunter and I can't afford to be caught. The stakes are high, there can be no mistakes.
Every place I see or think of is too small or too dangerous to hide in, after all I am 22 weeks pregnant. My belly is much smaller than in real life, but the need to protect it is strong. Everywhere I go I hear those footsteps not far behind. Sometimes I duck behind a piece of furniture just fast enough to avoid being noticed, though I get the sense that he knows I'm there and allows me to continue to search for safety more for his enjoyment and thrill.
This game of near hits seems to last for hours. The mansion is endless and I grow more and more tired with each panicked step...
I woke up from this dream about two times and both times I managed to fall back into it. Usually wakening will bring on a new dream, but not this morning.
Back into it again, I get a whole backstory of the assassin flooding into my mind. This man is a well known movie star!?? What?! In this dream he is a movie star with a secret life as an assassin for a very wealthy family. I don't know what I did to deserve to be hunted, perhaps it was just for sport, but I will never know. What I do know is that I am completely worn out. We went to bed early and got to sleep in an hour later, but it makes no difference when you spend your night running in fear.
I don't know what all this means, I cannot interpret dreams so if you have any ideas please feel free to leave them in the comments. I should mention that this theme of being hunted has been recurring since I became pregnant. I wish I could leave it behind, but there's obviously something bothering me.
I wish I had a picture that could convey the mood of this dream to you, but it seems that I only take pictures of lovely places and sunsets. Thanks for reading through and I hope your dreams are nicer than mine.
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